tell me what to do

TEll me what to do

here I am
Missing us
missing you
missing love
missing Christmas Morning
more than you know

Feeling like
knowing that
we may not be
holding on to
memories

how can I move forward
when all I do is look back
mourning a friendship lost
5 years of ok
crazy sex
and 4 am wake ups

not wanting to break her heart
or destroy yours

Tell me What to do

knowing that in all those
5 years
of foolishness
11pm kick outs
angry fights
crying phone calls
she has proved
to me that she has my back
no matter how strange it looks
on the outside

feeling that in 4 weeks
of christmas mornings
love making
pipe laying
wedding planning
soul searching
when I need you
to do something tangible
you folded
Cant have that
dont need that
when you feel like no one has you back
its time to move your back

so here I am missing you
being with her
loving you both
needing to see where this goes
daydreaming about you

Your life needs to move on
your love needs to be released
my heart wants to receive it
she needs me
i want you
or at least I think I do

tell me what to do